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WHEN THE FIREFLY IS GONE

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Saša Milivojev - WHEN THE FIREFLY IS GONE

 

LARVAE

 

Nine
Evening
A bright speck soars
Darkness from the sky
The spinning of a wedding dance
The sound of waves crashing
Against the rocks
Lava runs through the veins
A multitude of larvae
Behind the rocks
Shine instead of moonlight

 

 

EYES

 

In the eyes it is seen
Innocence to tuck you in
To bind you with wire
By peeling off the scales, to consume the soul
To make a coronet of straws
For the eyes that nail the words
Like stakes
To the heart’s silk membrane
The eyes’ shine tells
How lonely they are
How dreamy they are
For a touch
A fleeting touch

 

 

THE NOOK

 

There was a dance of light
In a gloomy room
My battle within a battle
Tiptoeing
Not to be heard
In the nook of my ailment
Of a dream eternal
Imagination refracts
Into a fan of rays
Waiting for a sign
My soul dreams
My heart is forged
My body is still
Yet someone can hear
A fervent word spoken
As hot lead
Letter by letter drips
Like an echo from the abyss
The climax of a magical tune
Invites my dreams
To catch the words
For you
For me
For us
In our nook
Of secrets

 

 

WINE AND FIRE

 

Imagine
You and I
Destiny
A night awakening
A spring that brings calmness
Body against body
Eye to eye
Wine and fire
Heaven opens
Sand and sweat
Waves crashing
A touch irresistible
Alone
Free as birds
Broken by love
Exhausted by passion

 

 

TILL THE WORLD’S END

 

Just one more moment
Of dying for you
An aching wound inside me
Nourishes body and soul
Like a salty tear
You are my aching wound
Let me beg you
And love you and love you
Like the bees love the flowers
As a swallow on one’s palm
As spring in blossom
I love till the world’s end
Just one more moment
Of dying for you

 

 

AT THE RIVER’S END

 

Love
Like an endless river
A firefly awaits
Shining from afar
Behind the darkness
Behind the clouds
Behind the sighs

 

 

GO

 

Go
When you awake
Spend the day with another
Vanish like a dream
The moonlight has dripped
In my eyes
I have no more words
Go
We have tried so much
Yet we have lost
What we dreamed of
We loved each other so much
And now I say
Go
Vanish
Vanish into oblivion

 

 

COME BACK

 

Come back
In a slumber
In a contellation
I listen for your soft steps
Vanished touches of mute fingers
Wrap my untouched neck
Like a wineglass overfilled
Like mother’s warmth
I miss
Your dazzling visage
Come back
From afar and remember
Our stage that is washed
By silver rains
Come back
From afar
Say my name no more
But come back
And use no more
Wingless birds to send
Teary letters
In the faded skies
Search for a path of return
As I have waited for you so long
I play with tears
Living every tone
Of our song
Come back
Freeze next to me
So we can melt together

 

 

A SLUMBER FIREFLY

 

Stillness stillness stillness
Stillness stillness stillness
A candle burns softly
Vanishes
The ink from the quill
The moonlight calls
Seeping through the windows
Stillness eternal stillness
Walls uttering
Words
Soothing aches
I put out the candle with a tear
And followed the moonlight
To search for happiness
Through a dark forest
In a wrinkled slumber
I listen to the beasts
Breathing
A plough
I drag
My soul
Attacked by them fiercely
And when a cloud covers the moon
A firefly leads me on
Lighting the way
The slumber never to end

 

 

ESCAPE

 

I started walking thirsty
An endless expanse
I saw myself on the other side
Walking towards me
Am I him
Or is he me
My body carried me
Not deluded by the dream
Thick wheat slowing me down
Sweat trickling
The sun murderous
Then he saw that I was he
And fled into the sunflower field
Tired of searching
In vain
I went home
Without myself

 

 

THE RAT

 

We met at the staircase
It looked at me
I looked at it
It was thinking
I was thinking
It smiled
I smiled
Then I took it in my hands
And stroked it

 

 

TO PUT THE SUN OUT

 

They are leaving
Through my dirty windows
I see the shadows in the distance
The sound of footsteps disappears in the silence
And a voice lures me
To scream out my tears
To return into my madness
To forget everything
To hang my soul on the washing line
My heart to stop the earth
To put the sun out
The End

 

 

PRAYER

 

I return to you Lord my God
Punish me
Punish me for not loving
Punish me my Lord
For not praying to you enough
So that my hands are not empty
For not feeling a warm look
For running away from the warmth
Punish me
For not fearing loneliness and silence
Like an intoxicated dance of fire
My every thought is a sin
My every smile
Punish me
Kill me
Our father, who art in heaven
Hallowed be thy name
When my body is laid to rest
May your kingdom
Take me in its chains
It is your will
I know
You know
Everyone knows
This pain is tearing me apart
And forgive me not my trespasses
As I forgive not
Those who trespass against me
I went through all the temptations
And came back to you again
To pray to you
Not to deliver me from evil
On earth as it in heaven
Let my body disintegrate
Punish me
Please
Kill me
Let no one
Shed a tear for me
Or say anything
As no one can be
Genuinely hurt
By God’s peace
I only wish
To sleep forever

 

 

AT THE CROSSROADS

 

Again I hear the trumpets
And a wedding party from afar
It raises the dead
They are coming
And I'm leaving
Embroidering the shroud
For myself
Made of cheap verses
Of wails and pains
That no one can hear
In the silence
At the crossroads
I speak to the Light and the Darkness

 

 

THE LAST HORSEMAN

 

White, everything is white
The walls are moving
A body in hospital sheets
White horses pull the bed
The soul crawls behind them and begs
White
Around the bed
Angels dance in a circle
The sky sheds its clothes
Give me back my body
To forge my heart
I do not want to travel anymore
Through this endless field
Wrapped in white sheets

 

 

DOOR

 

At heaven’s door
I watch through the keyhole
All my friends
Angels and devils
Chasing me
The opera has started
But I heard no overture sounds
Running away on the milky way
Picking fond memories from the sky
No longer do I recognise those faces
I stumbled over
The fake tears of the moon
I open the door
Returning to myself
And they are left with a shadow
If someone understands
That an archangel will be sculpted from it
I am leaving
My music is not there
The knots of my verses that I can untangle
Are not there

 

 

A CRY

 

Apollo’s discus
Fine blond hair
The echo of the universe
The strong winds of Zephyr
The sun’s heat
Melted the wax wings
And I fall again
Why am I not a shadow
To be torn into two pieces
In the air
Why do I not have an apple instead of a heart
To have an arrow driven through it
Why is uncertainty so agonising
Let the blade cut the neck
A curse
A choir is singing
Purple colours of dreams
A verse fallen from the lips
The thirst of withered lilies
From whose petals
We will hear a woeful
Cry

 

 

SUNSET

 

God is sleeping
I hug the sun
In the orange sky
The magnet is playing
Orange hookah
The muddy water of the Nile
A secret
An echo of silence is heard
Fingers on lips
A thought
Pyramid in the chest
Shiny steel
A touch
Like a mummy
I fell asleep
Eternally
Among red corals
And God is awakening

 

 

WHEN THE FIREFLY IS GONE

 

The tide shies away from the sand
Under the dark clouds
Someone is waiting
The lyre is calling for it
To fly down and shine
Fiery wires
Weave soft sentences
The water is still now
It’s turned to oil
The light speck has gone away
The lyre has fallen silent
And the shore remains deserted
Forever

 

 

 THE HEALER

 

Close your eyes and listen to the
Sky
Receive light
Through my body
Sky
The stars’ entire light
Is absorbed by your body
From burning hands
The endless warmth
Is so beguiling

 

 

VOLCANO

 

Below the naked sky
A hole is seething
An avalanche is boiling
The sun is melting away
Who protects you
From the burning rain
Now that you are gone

 

 

THE FIREFLY AND THE WIND

 

Thunder rumbles
The poles melting
Waves crashing
Towns sinking
I prayed to heaven
The wind has extinguished you
I will go barefoot on ice
Freeze myself going after you
My love

 

 

LOCUSTS

 

Black mountains are crumbling
The locusts hiss all around
Suddenly all is gone
The buzzing has harvested it all
Gnawed bones
Float soaked

 

 

ICE AGE

 

An endless plate of ice
The camel carries me
Treading heavily
Icy tears from sobbing splutter
It stumbles
Over the tips of the pyramids
Weeping
The soul is wrenched
My firefly is not here
At nine
As it once was

 

 

 

Copyright © Saša Milivojev, 2010.

Copyright © for Serbia: Filip Višnjić A.D. 2010.

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